I think its time I started logging my progress here as its started to get me down.
Its been one week since I received cream from the doctor. I have been using small amounts on and off and the stool softner on and off.
I have been using coconut oil and sitz plus carefully cleaning with cotton wool.
The last two days when Ive taken more of the stool softner the stool is mushy but there was no blood.
Today I didn't have the stool softner thinking I wouldn't pass anything today and I did. Surprisingly it was easy to pass and not the usual drama. Also it was better formed compared to when I use the stool softner. However disappointingly although it didn't hurt it bled (Not as much as previous but enough to make me feel low). There is a 3/10 pain which has gone on for a few hours.
Im now wondering- I went for some physio on my pelvic floor and although it made me feel loosened up and really great Im wondering now if it was the best thing to do as I felt a few twinges after so am wondering if I retore something or even a second tear- is this possible?
Is this normal?
Improvements- 1/ Stool is more regular ie not bunged up for 4 days and have to take a laxative in the end.
2/ Stool is better formed and was not so difficult to pass without a stool softner. 3/ This must mean that the spinchter muscle is not in its usual spasm because the stool came out easier and didn't feel like a golf ball
. (NB: My mensuration period ends today-not sure if this is linked even though I don't have periods due to low oestrogen so is this why it was better?)
Disappointments
-1/ It bled today- does this mean Im not healing/back to square one? with a 3/10 pain so feeling low
Any advise would be appreciated