Kate i know exactly what you mean. i've refrained from going out w/ my friends a lot in the past year b/c of this and it's affected my friendships and my social life. i have this huge secret that none of my friends know about or could possibly understand. i get so depressed thinking that i'm only 25 and this is what i have to look forward to for the rest of my life. sometimes it doesn't seem worth living at all. but what can we do besides keep trying and hoping? take comfort in your boyfriend, i know i rely so much on mine. and when you get hopeless, realize how much you've already endured and how strong you are b/c of it. that helps me when all i want to do is die.
and honestly, MOM has been the best thing to happen to me since i got this stupid fissure. i eat what i want now, when i want to, and i don't worry about ripping myself a new one the next day. besides, the way i see it i'd rather carry a bottle of MOM on weekend trips and stuff than a bag of supplements, fiber pills, special food, etc. it's so much easier and more discreet. don't worry about becoming dependent on it, it's not habit forming or a stimulant. and besides, wouldn't you rather be depending on something that gives you some relief, than be in pain or worrying about it everyday?
it has to get better for us. we have our whole lives ahead of us and it can't always be like this!