by StevePain » 26 Jul 2010, 15:38
Recently I've been doing great with very little pain and discomfort, but today I'm back in fissure hell, don't get me wrong though, I can manage the pain it's just annoying that after all the months of hard work this happens, I can't say it was a dodgy BM that caused the re-tear, rather, it was the passing of too many BM's some of which were watery, I knew I'd tore again because of the discharge and immediate aching/throbbing that followed, that's all it takes to set you back months, I know by now that fissures can never be underestimated, even after weeks of zero pain, this means nothing, once you've acquired a fissure then the associated area will always be prone to re-tears, ignore this at your peril, this time I really thought I had progressed to a really good healed state, maybe I did, maybe I didn't, but at least I tried, God damn this thing it won't win me because I only have three days to wait until surgery so I guess it's justified my decision, I admit I was thinking I didn't really need surgery because there was no pain and was in two minds whether or not to go ahead with it, so Mr.Fissure, you had better say your goodbye's I'm washing my hands of you!