I am having botox next Tuesday and am psyching myself out! Today has not been a good day, with anxiety at a peak, 4 bms so far and the last two with more bleeding than I've been having. My family Dr. (who I really respect) originally referred me to a general surgeon in their office in late July but by the time I saw his PA, my fissure was actually healing (and was essentially not bothering me for a month). When it came back while I was on vacation, my sister chimed in and wondered why I was even considering not going to a specialist. So when I came home, I started this process. I found I didn't need a referral for my insurance, looked in the most recent 5280 magazine (Denver's magazine) that listed "top docs" (seemed fortuitous that I saw this on the day I needed to find a Dr.). I found two CRS on their list that were also on our insurance and googled him and found him to have better ratings on "vitals" and "healthgrades". Saw him last week and he recommended the botox (I was ready and expecting the surgery to be recommended). I liked him ok although he wasn't warm and fuzzy- he was confident- said this was something I "should do" rather than "could do".
Now I feel strangely guilty for leaving my family doc out of the loop and worry if I made a good choice. Any thoughts? It is a hard thing.