So the title pretty much says it I think. Some of you have seen my posts from several weeks ago about my husband having a recurrence of his bladder cancer after 9 years of it being gone, but always lurking. You have to be very vigilant with bladder cancer and have frequent checks. During the time when I was trying to decide about LIS and was pretty preoccupied by my own a--, he started having occasional burning with urination. Long story short, he had surgery a week and a half ago to remove and biopsy the suspicious areas and to have a chemo agent instilled. We were still hopeful it would be the superficial, low grade type of tumors that are not too scary, but on Monday at the follow-up, we learned that several areas of his bladder that looked normal came back as positive for carcinoma in situ, which can be aggressive. As his Dr. put it, combined with his grade 3 tumor that was removed, this is "very worrisome". Since Monday, I have run through a million emotions. Monday we were in shock. Yesterday I was up at 4 and have found a great Dr. locally and we have a second opinion set up for Monday at the local cancer hospital. We also know we can fly down to Houston to MD Anderson and it is on our insurance. I haven't been on as much here lately and feel badly not to be offering the support to those who just had surgery. I hope you are all doing great! Things have been better for my physically the last few days. I have been taking acidophulus and finally have stopped having so many loose stools. Today I had a slightly firm one to start the day and then went again a while ago and it was a little irritated feeling. I feel like my anxiety level is so high and I can't even be realistic about my own body right now. I am just trying to hang in there, drinking extra water, went to Curves to do Zumba, eating well, etc...I had my 6 month dental cleaning yesterday and the hygienist was very surprised that I had little "buildup" but my gums were bleeding more than they should have. She asked me if I had been under a lot of stress?? So stress can cause inflammation of tissues like your gums? How am I going to get a handle on the stress in my body right now so it doesn't turn on itself and make my fissure come back? I need to be strong for my wonderful guy right now! Trying not to panic, but panic comes easily to me...
Bambi :(