Morning everyone....hope your all feeling not to sore today...
4 days to go......8.02am (yes hope i spose it was 4.5 days last night lol)
So my day started with a BM and pain from the sore fistula which is slowly filling and getting ready to yet again burst...guessing that will be tomorrow...we kind of get used to the feeling of it all cus we all put up with these things for so long..and like many others we just feel like we should put up with it until someone says different or it gets to painful to bear anymore. (feeling daft that i put up with it for 9 months tbh) but I did have a good read of the forum pages this morning..prob something i should have done alot more of from the start of finding this forum....and wow you have all been through so much pain!!!
Hope....ty for explaining about the differences between a fistula and a fissure, seems daft i didnt cotton on in the start but the more i read the more confused i got as to the differences??
Ok so i got to thinking after i read what hope explained and it seems a little weird that fissure sufferes have a tear and fistula sufferes have to have a cut to clean out the tube which leave an open wound?? i take it this is because it is a controlled surgical cut that isnt as deep as a fissure and will heal...so im going with that otherwise i might go into panic mode again
Also i was thinking about the double surgery i am having.....fistualotomy and banding.....and i am now thinking it would be a daft idea to have (in such a small, tight, squashed up space) a long open cut running from high up inside to just outside my anus with 2 tight banded balls pushing on the now open wound up inside?? surely this will make the healing process harder for my fistula?? so im going to ring and cancel the baning to be done at a later date..i think this is best for now. :)
Can i just say that you are all completely bonkers! and ive loved reading more and more posts from you all....from being a wreck, panicing, crying and feeling sick ive come to today feeling happy that im having this surgery and confident..infact i wish it was today so i can just get it sorted...youve all made so many people feel like i feel now...
Anyway thats enough gushy stuff....i have a sorting day today...but still trying to leave some jobs to do to keep me active when i get home after friday....trying to get the physical jobs done and leave the little ones...normally the other way round i have to admit...but the cakes were lovely yesterday and i froze a bunch for when im feeling like i need cake after the op...got to have cake! I even made some with prunes and walnuts in to keep me regular but then i read to avoid nuts incase the scrape on the way out!!. i was gutted :( i eat nuts and seeds everyday...defo gona miss them for a week or 2
I also read about the veg and i do get very gasy from veg so im going to avoid the gasy veg and stick to the not so much gasy veg....i eat salad alot but as its raw should i stear clear of this also??
It can get i little confusing....so im getting a little stuck on whats good and what to avoid but im defo not going to be eatting any red meat or bread or pasta or potatoes....rice and cereals is going to be about my limit i think for the carbs...so thinking back to the meal planing idea and leaving it until my partner says, "oh no we didnt do the food list" is prob not a wise move...i think i need to go shopping lol :roll:
Time for me to make a move now....hope the sun is shining for you all today....its beautiful here :)
Di xx