Hey everyone! I just wanted to update you all on my progress now that it has been three weeks since my surgery.
I went on Thursday and had my follow up appointment with my CRS, he was very pleased with how well I've healed so far which was a big relief. I have really struggled with having regular BMs since surgery. I've had 4 soft BMs one day, several episodes of diarrhea the next, and then just one soft BM the day after that. I'm really struggling with my anxiety now, I'm not sure why being pain-free has stirred up my anxiety attacks but I'm wondering if that is the cause of my inconsistency.
Anyway to sum up, I'm having pain-free BMs, no spasms afterward, and really enjoying being a mom with no pain since I've never experienced that! I really want to cry when I think about how much I've missed with my son because of fissures and wish I would have been braver and had surgery sooner. It definitely would have made recovery easier to have a smaller kid to heft around!
But I'm so optimistic my husband and I are talking about having another baby! By c-section of course, I've had enough stitches between my legs to last a life time! It really helped that my surgeon has had numerous LIS patients have babies post LIS and be fine. I know I will be fine too :)
And I just want to say, for anyone that is lurking, if you have a fissure and you are willing to keep on suffering because you are so scared to have surgery - DON'T! The pain from surgery will last seconds compared to all the time you've suffered with your fissure! I thought about it this way, whether I have surgery or not I will be in pain the week after my surgery date, but if it's surgery pain then it's healing, otherwise it's just fissure pain. So why not take the chance? I hope that helps be the kick in the butt someone needs!