by rasmith3530 » 18 Feb 2012, 02:56
Tanya, haven't found out about any Med changes yet, but I'm gonna be pushing with the psych folks to do something regarding the Prozac, Klonopin, Cymbalta "cocktail" they've had me on, for it hasn't altered any of my neuro symptoms after three months, and I've actually been feeling more depressed/anxious since they've had me on it. It seems that every time I turn around, another wall is being erected. I just found out today that my insurance has approved for eight, half days in the day hospital program I'm now in. If they've found nothing in seven months, I have little faith in just over a week.
In my youth, I lived vicariously and threw caution to the wind in all things, whether it was street rracing autos, blasting around on my motorcycles, getting into fights, or abusing chemicals of all types. I was a diciple to Timothy Leary, and never figured that I would make thirty, let alone almost double that. I figured that if I didn't die from excessive mind altering, death by miadventure would get me.
I am thoroughly of the belief that it is the excessive mind altering which has come to haunt me. Both a psych that I saw twenty eight years ago as I was cleaning up, and a neurologist that I saw only months ago had the same answer when I posed a question regarding the long term effects of all the chemicals that I had put into my body in fairly large quantities up until I turned 30. They both replied that they did not know, and that there was no body of information upon which to draw any reliable answers from.
I do hope the Mayo route bares fruit, but I am not getting my hopes up too high.
Now, onto my butt. The pain during the BM has reduced a fair amount. I can see the appearance difference in my stools. It is those darned spasms though which are still plagueing me. It is they that currently have me still awake at almost three AM local time.
As the 27th draws more near, I find myself bouncing back and forth between a sense of pending joy that the surgery will close the page on my fissure, and concern that my other health stressors will somehow sabotage my recovery.
Oh yes, last but not least, I had to do some hiking today in order to get my reduced fare card for regional transportation. My sciatica was in full form. I may have to get a couple more rounds of injections, and even then, it may come down to surgery.
Hope every one is doing well out there.