Jr,
I'm sorry this is still continuing to torment you, with nothing to aid you in the way of comfort or relief. Is this pain right now, that's got you so beaten down, solely from your fissure? Or, is it a culmination of issues? I'm truly concerned for your overall well-being at this point, seriously
. I think I remember you saying on another thread that maybe the risk of surgery is worth a shot, since you don't seem to have any other alternative to at least try and ease your pain. Maybe enough is enough here jr. I mean, there's only so much a person can withstand...and it seems like you've really rode this out for sooo long now....maybe it's too long jr. I'm hoping we get good results from Tanya, I don't believe you tried that TCM yet...maybe that could be encouragement for you to try that treatment, at least it's natural and doesn't seem to be a procedure that would put you at any sort of risk with regards to your other health issues. But if there's nothing else..nowhere else to turn...then maybe you'll seriously consider an excellent CRS who'd be willing to try and offer you some way overdue relief and perhaps proceed with surgery.
There's only so much you can do for yourself and by yourself, and I know how extremely knowledgeable and wise you are with many medical issues, as well as mental and emotional ones. But at some point, you've got to know if things aren't getting better...and may, in fact, be getting worse by dealing with this on your own...you just may have to take that chance, and risk, outside of yourself to find healing.
I'm hoping and praying and wishing that you will be better and stronger and that a healing path will come for you NOW.
With Love and Best Wishes,
Angel