I had a sygmoidoscopy with sedation yesterday. Guys, I like sedation! Had this procedure twice without - huge difference, no discomfort, no pain during or after. I was out for about 5-10 min only and my mind was clear when I woke up; no nousea as well, just slow and a bit dizzy for about 30-40 min. All procedure took 90 min. The best part is - she didn't see anything wrong including fissure!!! Told me to keep using Nifedipine for 6 more weeks. Unfortunatly had no time for asking questions. Is that possible for fissure to heal without scar tissue? Mine is chronic, as she diagnosted before, approximatly 10 weeks old with noticable skin tag. I will make an appointment, because I don't know what to do with my still very narrow rectum and urgency. Well, couple of hours after prosedure I had to use a public washroom, cabin was occupied and I didn't make it ... It's a nightmare... It probably has to do with air they pump inside to see better. Now I know to carry extra underware in a handbag ( I already have one in a car). Todays Bm was much better, I managed to hold it for 3 minites while driving, trying not to panic too much and not to crush. I noticed that only a few people on this forum are suffering from similar problem, you would understand!
I'm happy that fissure is healing, but till now longest time between retears was 6 days. Today is only a 5th day. I am still looking for my food-fibre-stool softner rutine; when i think I've found it, after 5-6 days with no change at all I suddenly get wider and harder BM. I use Benefiber and generic Colace for now. The problem is that my intestines are sort of delicate ( easily get diarrhea ) and active ( 3-4 BM a day now, but used to have 1-3 before this AF ), so I don't dare taking something stronger.
Anyways, I will try being optimistic.

Sana1
That is really great news that your scope didn't show a fissure!
I can relate to the urgency problem too. The only thing to do is keep a sense of humor about it and just move on. I can also relate to the tendency for diarrhea and having multiple bathroom trips in a day.
I'm so glad you had the sedation. It makes a huge huge difference.
How are you doing now? Are you still ok?
I'd be really interested to hear anything your doctor might have to say about your questions about having a narrow rectum with urgency.
I'm so happy for you and for your great report!

I still can't get an appointment to discuss my results, they don't even return my calls. Good news are, I think I went into remission ( not sure about spelling, english is my third language, I mean the opposite of relapse ). I don't have pain during BM, no bleeding, itch is gone after more than a month, no spasms - that's the best part! Since I started my TCM, I did't have spasms during 3 re-tears (sorry Tanya). Last time I had serious pain was 3 days following finger exam, but nothing after sygmaidoscopy. I should be happy, but the main thing that bothering me exept for urgency is very strong pressure when I pass, like it's gonna rip the whole thing... And I'm so scared, because I know it could. I hardly believe I will ever be able to poo without fear ever again. I put so much efforts to do it right, slow, not to push, I eat good food, I drink, I watch my fibers, I take stool softner etc, and I'm still terrified of possibility that the nightmare might return in full. I fill so traumatized, more than during any of my health issues, and I had lots of them at some moments of my life...
On the other hand I learned to apreciate any moment free of pain. I take it easy, I'm not afraid of other pains: headache - advil helps, flu - it will pass in a week, pain from 3 recently broken bones - nothing comparing to fissure pain, really. Any other problems are not that serious any more.
G-d, I learned my lesson, no need to teach me again!

Hey Sana,
Glad things are working out well with the TCM for you.
I haven't given up on it yet. Being patient and all that.
You take care!
It takes a long time for the psychological scars to fade after you heal.
-Tanya