Hi guys
Ive been browsing here for a long time for information but my situation has got so severe that it's time I started engaging with the community for more advice. I'm a 26 year old male with my life ahead of me and it's not looking so great right now.
My situation. I developed a fissure 5 years ago, and managed it well. It would tear every now and then and it was awful but at least I could live a normal life and keep a job.
However. The last few months have been agony. The pain is different. x100 what it was before. There is blood every time I have a BM no matter what I do or how soft my stools are. Its unbearable and I have to sit in a bath afterwards, every single day for hours. It's ruined my life to the point I dont go out anymore, have very few friends, and i've lost so much weight on this diet its unreal (5 stone in 6 months). I have been checked, and its only a fissure. Nothing serious, but the pain is outrageous.. I could destroy a curry or something I actually enjoy right now i'm so hungry but if I deviate from the diet in the slightest I experience something nobody should ever have to!!! I was overweight at 15 stone. Now i'm underweight at under 10.
I've tried lots of meds in the past from my doctor and they have all worked and helped me. But not anymore. This is different now. When it got this bad my doctor gave me xyloproct. This cleared it up instantly for a few weeks, then out of nowhere came the WORST PAIN I cant even begin to describe. I'm sure you guys know what I mean :(. I'm currently on instillagel and rectogesic 4mg whatever it is. I don't care, they don't seem to be doing anything at all!!! My stools are soft. Always. Ive eaten nothing but salad for 6 months. And I find it hard using the meds cause i'm so tight down there I cant even get them in anymore.
I live a life of fear and if this goes on for much longer i'm certain i'm going end it. I need this sorted ASAP. I'm really really scared :(. I want my life back. And i''m crying cause i'm in so much pain while writing this.
Any advice would be hugely appreciated. The depression, the PAIN, the fear. It all has to end. This has got to the point where i'm out of work and can barely afford to keep my home. This is dangerous territory. With the pain the way it is I don't know where to turn. Nothing is working . Please help!!!