by Anne37 » 01 May 2013, 23:17
I don't know much about the botox either aside from what I've read of others' experiences on this site. When I brought it up to my CRS dismissed it immediately saying it wasn't any more effective than the Nifedipine cream he'd prescribed me. That sort of surprised me since so many on this site have tried it, but I trusted his experience and am glad I did.
I'd tried everything I could think of and after 4 months of taking 1 step forward and 2 steps back I finally opted for LIS and a fissurectomy. All it would take is one bad BM, usually because I was overloaded at work and didn't have time to eat right and drink all 64 oz. of water. Regardless off the reason, I simply wasn't healing. Today marks one week since my surgery and I'm glad I did it. I was petrified of LIS - hate shots, getting cut, worry about anesthesia, etc. but reading about everyone else's experiences on here made the decision a bit easier. For me the final decision to do the LIS came when I felt my quality of life was completely gone. I wasn't eating, driving, keeping plans or even making them anymore. I began to realize I was losing touch with a few good friends and work was becoming unbearable. Was I ever going to be able to ride my bike again or walk my dog more than half a block?
I agree with Ceeteefeebs in that there is not right/wrong. It's what's best for you, and I think you'll know when/if it's time for you. I'm not a proponent of jumping into surgery if you can get it to heal on your own, but while the past week (since surgery) has been difficult I see a light at the end of the tunnel that I'd lost sight of after being worn down from the daily pain. I mean... I actually drove my car today for the first time since surgery and although my stitches were bothering me, I COULD SIT WITHOUT SQUIRMING! I actually started crying I was so moved by that fact. lol.
Ask yourself if the pain is bearable and you have the strenght to keep fighting or if you've been dealing with it so long that you're simply out of energy. Maybe that's your answer. Keep us posted on what you do or don't decide and hang in there!