Aaaaawe

, I am so sorry that you feel this bad again :( , and your CRS has no right to rush you into anything !!!! He should give you all alternative options as long as you want them

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If I were you, I would try to see another CRS for a second opinion !!!! I visited 5 CRSs total until I found one that I liked, but still - he is excellent surgeon and not so much versed for conservative treatments. So, I have one CRS who is great with those - creams, Botox and all that jazz, and the other one who is better in "cutting" ; ), so I would visit each according to my needs

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Maybe there is one that is good at it all LOL, but I do not mind this arrangement - actually gives me 2 prospective when I need them.
If you are scared of surgery, than definitely ask for another cream to try. I had much better result with Nitro, for example . It will give you a headache , but nothing that Tylenol would not control, at least it was like that for me.
Next you can try a Botox !!!!! And if nothing helps - LIS is very good option and not that bad at all ! It does not hurt even one tenth of what you experienced at the beginning of your fissure : ((( and you had it bad , same as me

. Some lucky people do not have that extent of pain *sigh. I really feel for you since I remember like it was yesterday - all that debilitating pain :( . I can completely understand how you just some days can not go to work , and nobody who did not experience that level of pain can understand the anguish of a fissure :( life. I hope you have a good friend , or parent or husband/bf, who would give you support and listen to you whan you need to vent during this very difficult period

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Hope tomorrow you will feel much better !!!! Just have in mind that you tried only one of many things that can help you !!!! Can you ask your GP to give you some Valium to relax that spasm ??? It is part of regular care for fissure spasms - so do not feel like you are asking for something unheard of ! Both of my CRSs prescribed it when it was necessary !
Wishing you fast healing

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