Hi all- as my LIS date approaches I find myself thinking of different things to worry about or questions. This one was what was in my head when I woke up this morning. I started freaking out about the fact that the surgeon is going to make his own "cuts" when the cut I have won't heal. What really is it that makes it possible for the surgery "cuts" to heal when the fissure is such a bugger. Is it just the reduction in pressure and better circulation?
I found myself worrying about what if I don't heal from these new things. Part of my increased worrying really has to do with my current pattern of nearly two weeks of good days (with of course the perfect poop going on) and then about 3 days of midlevel pain and bleeding. Given that it is almost a year, this is almost acceptable and the thought of making things worse again is tormenting me. On the other hand, the few people who know of my problem are urging me to go ahead and get it over with because things will just keep coming back again. If I were in the worst of the pain and bleeding I have had over the past year, I would probably just be excited about it, although still scared of course. But I have progressed to a level of mediocrity- one really bad day and I would be feeling much differently. I also have never really experienced what I know many of you have and that is the intense spasms that go on and on. My pain has mainly been associated with the BMs themselves and irritation of the area afterwards. I have developed this pattern of pooping almost every time I eat, which is annoying, and not that much comes out, so maybe this incomplete pooping is a result of some spasms?