Ahh, I know exactly how you feel. I cried a lot too, especially when I thought my fissure was a hemorhoid and I kept shoving those horrible suppositories up my bum! It hurt like crazy! :no:
What I recommend for you is to take lots of hot sitz baths when the spasms come. If you know when they are most likely to come, run the hot water first, so its ready for you to jump in. The hot water should help relieve the spasming a bit. I also keep a heating pad near my bed so if it ever did happen, I could just sit on it at night.
Dont worry, a lot of us feel that same way, and we have all been frustrated with our condition at one time or another. I am definately in that category. You shouldn't feel bad for...feeling the way you do!
I hope that since you found our forum, you can relieve some of your frustration to people who will support you. I know how hard it is not to be able to talk about your condition with many people. I was always afraid people would laugh at me, or think I was really weird. Not many of my friends know, and my boyfriend and family know, but thats about it.
Vent all you like. We are here to help.
kate
