Hello all, thank you for all the discussions. Many kind people here.
38yo male, fairly healthy. 1.5 years ago or so, didn't have best diet and had a external thrombosed hem pop up a couple different times. Right at about 11 o'clock upper left. First time went away quick, day or so. The last time it last much longer, few weeks but did end up going away. I did see a doc, said it was external thrombosis and clots can have a mind of their own but it will go away eventually which it did. He only looked externally. Very painful, but mostly exterior pain but I did feel a bit of an ache up inside that felt related/connected. To this day there is a bit of a soft small lump in that area but can't feel on the outside when in normal relaxed position. Have to open a little to feel in there usually during shower.
Changed diet and quit doing some other things that surly weren't helping. Been completely fine externally for a long time. However, now I have this ongoing ache feeling deep inside on that left side. I'm sure I'm dealing with some referred pain due to the lack of nerves up in there, but this ache feeling will sometimes even radiate to the front of my lower belly, or maybe groin area. Even though I'm getting this aching feeling all the way to the front of my body, I'm almost certain it's related to the original area where I had the external issue. Sometimes I will get a sharp brief pain feeling very near the external area, but just on the inside.
I never, ever have bleeding. Passing stools can sometimes feel a scrape feeling, but never any grooves in stools or anything weird. No flat or skinny stools. The actual consistency or size of the stool doesn't really seem to impact things much one way or another. I am very regular, first thing when I get up every day, never need to strain. Sometimes I can feel okay early in the day, then worse later or vice versa. Very odd.
Do you guys think I may just have an internal hem messing with me? Or perhaps this could be a fissure?
I have had a CRS bookmarked on my computer for over a year. I know what he will do when I go see him and I fear that. I have told myself that if things don't improve this winter I will face my fear and make an appointment.
Thank you.