hi fissure friends
i've just logged on for the first time in a long time and saw this message. thanks for thinking of me guys.
i'm still trudging along living my fissure life. it's just an up and down thing from one day to the next. i'll have a great week or more and then back to pain again. i'm not letting it interfere as much with my life though. i've been much more social, optimistic, and happy lately. i guess i try not to dwell on it so much.
i'm still using diltiazem twice a day, taking over a full dose of miralax + 500mg magnesium + 2 teaspoons benefiber everyday. things are staying pretty soft, even when i stray from my diet a little. but i can't go too out of control (i definitely still avoid dairy, and meat and won't go near pizza or fast food). i have 2 more appts with different CRSs so i'm still not giving up although i don't think they'll have much more to offer than i've already heard many times before.
as discouraging as this all gets to be, i have to remember i'm better off now than i was 3 years ago! it's tough for me to think about how hopeful i was this time last year...and the year before and the year before.... but i try to push those thoughts away. everyone seems to heal eventually and hopefully one day i will too. until then it's just a condition i'm learning to live with.
i hope everyone's doing well and on the road to healing! you all have been very compassionate over the last few years and definitely helped me thru some rough times. i think of you all often.