... Bet we all think this...
I know we all say this at times for various reasons, but with AF as the BEST reason, I truly wish I could go back to before all this crap started and treat my body like a temple, I would of put only the best in my body and never strained myself, I should of let nature take it's course instead of hurrying things along by pushing, I know - hindsight is a terrible thing! But there isn't a day goes by where I don't think about life before rectal pain and what it used to be like, although it's a distant memory now since i've had a$$ problems for over 10 years, only 2 of them are AF years but seem like a lifetime, what normal people take for granted, we simply cannot, I can't recollect what it feels like to have a normal pain free BM and just use the bathroom briefly instead of my life revolving around it, it's not just that, it's other things like just sitting comfortably, going for a walk, going out for a meal, etc etc, these are things that most people take for granted but for the AF sufferer these are incredibly difficult, anal fissures should be recognised as a disability, because we are in a way debilitated, limited in what we can do...
If only I could turn back the clock...