Hi everyone, as the title states, I'm new here and I'm looking for support.
First, a little about me - I am a 30 year old female and I have suffered from fissures for years. I originally went to a rectal surgeon in 2007 that I did not have much confidence in. When he told me I had a fissure, I asked a lot of questions and he just handed me a pamphlet. I tried all of the topical ointments he could come up with, but nothing worked. Finally, on my last visit with him, he told me to schedule surgery on my way out. I scheduled that surgery in Dec of 2009, but didn't feel confident. I realized that the first step to a successful surgery would be to have confidence in my surgeon. For that reason, I cancelled my surgery. That surgeon is now out of practice. (Shocking...)
Since then, I had one bad flare up last year that included massive amounts of blood at one point. I knew this wasn't right, and I just figured I had a hemorrhoid that ruptured (which would be a first for me as I've never had them before). So, I researched rectal surgeons and found a local doctor that could get me in quickly. After a rectal exam and colonoscopy it was determined that I didn't have hemorrhoids, but instead had enlarged papillae at the internal ends of my fissures. I should also note that I have two fairly large skin tags at the outer ends of the fissures. The surgeon was fabulous as he sat with me and explained the procedures that needed to be performed. He drew pictures of my issues and answered every question, no matter how small, I could think of on the spot.
So, this is where I need support. I have surgery scheduled for this Friday, January 14th. I will be having a sphincterotomy as well as an anoplasty (also referred to as an advancement flap procedure, where two flaps of skin will be transferred from elsewhere to 'fix' the two large fissures). The surgeon informed me that I will be sent home with a catheter in the wound to feed pain medicine for the week, and that I will be out of work for at least 2 weeks. He also said it could take months to feel "normal" again.
Has anyone had this done? I am so freaked out about it all - the pain, the recovery, the anesthesia. Any information, experiences, anything that someone can offer would be greatly appreciated.
If possible, due my level of anxiety, please don't tell me what I'm doing is wrong. The decision has been made. I just need something, anything, to get me through this Friday.
Thank you all in advance.