I'm now at the 6 month post-op stage and still getting discomfort and some pain, I'm still tinkering with food, trying to find a nice balance that will come out the other end easily, I find this a major hurdle in the battle for recovery, I mean what the hell does the perfect fissure friendly turd look like?!? I've had all shapes, sizes and textures but at some point they all bloody hurt!! Too soft causes pain, watery causes pain, sticky slimy and damn right horrid causes pain, ironically, hard stools cause the least pain but in the long run they're gonna do some damage to an already compromised bum, I'd be happier to have my asshole sewn up and poo in a bag, no - seriously I would!!
Emotionally, these damn things drain and zap the life out of you, I used to be happy and laugh a lot but along came this little cut and destroyed who I used to be, I can get emotional at the drop of a hat, never before did I analyze everything I ate, water consumption and what my poo looked like, I've never seen my asshole so many times in my life as I have since this sorry saga started, it's almost like an obsession, I have a thing about checking my ass for any odd looking lumps or bumps, as for food, it must always revolve around vegetables, it's a wonder I don't have OCD yet!
Any newbies reading this shouldn't feel discouraged by my experience, we are all different, LIS works really well for some and they heal quickly, however there will always be a minority that struggle with the healing, unfortunately I seem to be one of them, despite this I'm still hoping for success at the 1 year mark, in other words, I'm accepting that this thing will take at least a year to feel anything like normal and 2 years to try and forget it ever existed!
That's it for now