by William2 » 12 Mar 2017, 07:35
It's hard to tell if I'm improving. I'll have a great day, then a bad day. I think the trend is very slow towards getting better, but I'm not 100% sure. The nifedipine has kept the spasms/cramps mostly under control, but the healing just doesn't seem to be happening. If I'm not having many cramps with the medicine (as long as I don't spend much time sitting), I'm not sure what more surgery would do for me.
I went to work Monday and Tuesday. Monday was very uncomfortable, but Tuesday was great (even though my BM that morning was harder than I'd like). Wednesday was a really bad day, with a bad BM to start. I stayed home the rest of the week. Friday and Saturday were pretty good days, though. My BM this morning left the fissure site sore, so I'm not sure how I'm going to do today. All I know is that I can no longer afford to avoid going to work. I just have to deal with it. I wish I could find a good full-chair seat heater that can plug into the wall (instead of just a car cigarette lighter).
I started using coconut oil last night. I just put a little bit on the outside and slightly inside. It made me feel more "pliable" down there, but that didn't help my BM this morning.
I finally have an appointment with a therapist this week. The last time that I had a fissure, there was a six-month period where I thought about suicide every day. I haven't gotten to that point yet this time, and hopefully it will heal before I do.
8/09 - 12/10: fissure, cured by LIS/fissurectomy
1/17 - present: fissure/hemms, healed but pain remained, 3 CRSs (nifedipine, infrared coag) were no help, cold dilating >= 1" helped but still have pain when sitting