by Hope2BeNormalAgain » 01 Nov 2011, 23:07
Hi all, thank you all so much for this forum. I have lurked here for 6 months or so and truly appreciate each post I've read.
I have had fissures since my first child was born via c section, 18 months ago They developed within 2 weeks due to poor diet and dehydration. I was breastfeeding around the clock and had no real help at first from anyone, so I just ate whatever I could easily. Initially, I had 2 fissures, a small posterior and a large anterior. The posterior healed within 4 months. The anterior took a year to heal. My CRS had suggested surgery for it, but I wasn't ready. I healed it with Diltiazem for 2 weeks before I had a reaction. Then I continued with Vit E oil several times daily and drastically changed my diet. This past May I had a follow up and everything seemed on the upswing. I could eat more foods and only felt the scar tissue when I had BMS, but no pain. At the follow up, my doc prescribed Nefedipine ointment to try because I said I still felt a tiny pinch at times when having a BM. This was the worst thing for me! I tried it and immediately I felt tightening, but thought it was just temporary. The next morning when I had my BM, I felt a brand new tear. I babied it immediately for a couple of weeks and it seemed to get better. Then in August, I had a setback with this new fissure and simultaneously got a very superficial one across from it! I babied them again and got past the painful part and could just feel stretching when having BMs. Went back to CRS and he said everything looked good, mostly healed, don't call unless you need us. No mention of surgery at all! I was ready to try and get pregnant, again! Until, the worst BM I've had in 18 mos came on a few days later and ripped both of the more recent fissures open. Great...so here I am again scheduled for surgery, but scared out of my mind that I'm going to leak the rest of my life. I keep thinking I should just give natural healing one more try! I know I can get back to the point I was at in a few weeks...it's just hoping I don't have that one day where I get lazy in my habits and eat something I shouldn't or not drink enough water!