Okay so my "examination under anesthesia" is tomorrow and because I had leaking during the physical exam he wanted me to do part of a colonoscopy bowel prep which I've had before and I'm doing that in a few hours...NOT FUN. Not only that, I've been in tears ever since I got up this morning and my nerves are shot. I don't even know what will happen when I come out of anesthesia..I'm going in blind practically. When he examined me he said " it's either a pilonidal cyst or a fistula but I'll want to do the procedure to figure out and then if it's a fistula and we can fix it, we will, and same with pilonidal. I'm scared for many reasons. He never even mentioned me getting a colonoscopy before to see if there was any underlying cause. I had one a couple years ago but my colon was squeaky clean..probably because I'm only a teenager. Anyways, I heard that fistulas can come from people who have Crohn's but I have no symptoms..and the only fistula symptoms I have is leaking from my butt some bleeding after a BM, only on the toilet paper. Didn't spot external hemmies on rectal exam..but maybe internal? GAH, I'm going nuts. I have to wake up tomorrow morning *if I can even get to sleep tonight* at 5 and be there at 7..procedure at 9. I want the leaking to be gone, but I also don't want to wake up from the "examination" not knowing what they did to me. I have this overwhelming fear that even if they fix the fistula..that won't cure my leaking problems. I'm gonna go insane by the end of the night