by rasmith3530 » 10 Feb 2012, 21:59
Jr, thanks for the way you presented that insight. I do believe that the greatest stumbling block to that second arrow is the conditioning we receive daily regarding our consummerist society, and how we must look just so, behave like this, and do the work of four people or risk losing our slot in the corporate machine that could be whisked away next month anyway due to a bad financial report.
One of the other great teachers that I look to is that young carpenter guy from ancient Nazareth. He didn't tell his followerrs to accumulate a Lexus, a gorgeous home, five flat screen HD TVs and all the other modern hip accessories of life, and there was a reason for that.
We've talked about stress as a possible major factor with fissures. That is what the other arrow is. Am I going to be included in that next round of layoffs? Am I maxxed out on my credit? How am I gonna cover the kid's braces and college tuition? Any of this sound familiar?
Of course, once the fissure enters our lives, everything else just goes upside down. Tanya mentioned her fear of maybe not being able to ride a bike again. I don't know if I'll ever be able to drive again, and cars have been a part of my life since I was a kid. I played with toys, watched my dad work on and race his, and went on to do the same myself as I grew older. It was my first real professional occupation, and now, because the doctors can't find or straighten out what's happening in my head, I may never sit behind the wheel again.
Over the years, I've done enough things to harm my body. Today, I am working overtime to correct that first arrow. But yes, it is that second arrow, especially after it has been complicated by being shooved up your backside.
Thanks to the local anesthetics and the spinal block applied yesterday due to my herniated disc, I was in glorious land of the pain free. Today, I am reminded again of reality. I sit here now, spasms going like crazy.