So I have an AF as you all can guess as I have a copious number of posts under my belt here.
Probably had it for at least 9 months. And had it at least twice before that over the last couple years. But have only known it was an AF for the last 4.5 months and treated it accordingly.
Not sure how I got it. Probably a large BM or two, but can't remember. Probably has something to do with the extensive episiotomy scar I have from a forceps delivery, although 3 CRSs have thought not. Probably has something to do with stress. Wish I has a smoking gun to point to, but I don't. Not plagued by spasms, just hurts when I BM and then sore and twinging the rest of the time. Just don't want to live with it forever, but scared that I might have to.
Well I was doing really well, had days with almost no discomfort at all, but then for the last few days have been feeling twinges again. Nothing great though. But this morning there was blood again. Hadn't had that in over a month, so feeling pretty blue and scared.
To put it in perspective though. I can sit on any old chair without too much discomfort. So compared to previous setbacks it is still mild, I guess. Not as much inflammation.
But I am just so sick and tired of it ruling my life.
I think the dilation was helping, but now I am unsure. Did I not go big enough with the dilators??
So I am going to bite the bullet and go see the local TCM guy. Initial consultation is free, but could be quite costly if I decide to go that way, as insurance won't help.
Botox with the second CRS I saw will cost $400 and may or may not be partially reimbursed by my health insurance. Honestly I would pay more if I knew it would help. But it would \"yangtze fluid\" me off if I paid money and it didn't help. Like all the money wasted on this and that miracle cure before this.
so after I get the consultation at the TCM clinic the choices are;
Botox with the second CRS I saw,
or the herbal remedies of the TCM clinic.
(part of me wonders if I shouldn't do both...)
and/or should continue dilating?
or like my first CRS thinks.... just live with it. :(
any thoughts on this? Sure would appreciate some other thoughts to help clear my muddled mind.
-Tanya
p.s. sorry to be such a downer.