Ok so lately I've been eating lots of veggie soup, taking Miralax dutifully, taking Valium, and using both nifedipine and nitroglycerin (on different days) for my fissure. It seems to have been somewhat successful in that my stool is soft and frozen yogurt like most of the time (you're welcome for the imagery :)) and bowel movements are usually only mildly painful to moderately uncomfortable. No screaming pain for a few days now. Once in a while a hard poop comes along just to mess with me and remind me of my relative standing in the world, but I haven't cried like a small child for several days now. And the bleeding seems to have reduced greatly (knock real hard on wood here).
But here's the deal. Every morning, I have a routine:
* Wake up, feel the urgent need to poop.
* Rush to take a Valium, apply either nifedine or nitro using my fingers, and apply dibucaine ("cocaine for your butt" as my doctor buddy calls it) using my fingers to numb any pain. During this entire time, I can feel the urgent need to poop (i.e., the "prairie dogging" sensation to put it sophomorically).
* I then run for the bathroom to take care of business.
This is all fine and dandy, but for the last two days, I've noticed that by the time I get to the bathroom and sit on the throne, a small turd (maybe 1"x1" similar in size to a hairball puked by a cat) has already escaped and is now claiming its territory in my undergarments. This is a bit nasty but easy to manage since I'm still at home. The same thing hasn't happened any time and place other than when I first wake up in the morning with the urgent need to go.
My question to you all is this: does this sound like continence to you? And has anyone else experienced this while using nifedipine or nitro therapy?
Personally I think it is because (1) the Miralax makes me need to go urgently, and (2) I loosen up the sphincter too much when applying Valium, nifedipine/nitro, dibucaine and waste precious time doing so (especially when there's a poop at the very end of the rectum waiting already). I'm not overly concerned about it just yet, but it is a new development, and it is a bit unsettling, so I thought I'd see if any others have had similar issues with escapees.
Cheers and hope everyone is having a good day, well as good as one can have with a fissure, that is :)