I have been doing pretty much everything I can to heal this fissure. I drink plenty of water, consume plenty of fiber, use diltiazem 2% ever 12 hours or so, and I've been taking LONG baths recently, however starting last night the fissure has been periodically stinging and making itself known. How is this possible? I was pretty much pain-free since January and have been pretty dilligent since then, hell I've been dilligent for over a year now. These creams are a temporary fix, I feel like I've been using them so long that they are never going to heal the wound. When I apply the diltiazem I can feel my fissure, which I couldn't before, and that either tells me that it is growing or that there is some scar tissure building up, which I hear prevents the healing process.
The thing is my life is not unbearable, I can deal with relatively minor pain throughout the day, but I feel like if I go and get LIS or a fissurectomy (whats the difference by the way?) it will make things worse and my life will then be unbearable. My fissure is probably not as bad as some of yours, but its a fissure nonetheless and it is ruining my life. I'm a 21 year old college student that doesn't go out or do anything because he has to sit at home and care for his asshole. What a joke. Sex and masturbation are the worst things for it as they tighten up those muscles back there resulting in pain that lasts for weeks, I finally realized that those were two huge factors in my fissure not healing. I know it's bad but suicide seems to always be in the back of my mind, I would never do it while my mom's still alive, but the fact that I am actually having thoughts of suicide worries me (I know, I should talk to someone). I don't focus on school, I haven't had a job in over a year, and it seems as though all my future holds is more of the same in terms of the pain.
Sorry for the long winded post, but what should I do? Get surgery? Keep using ointments? I just don't know anymore.