by Okaybum » 16 Nov 2018, 21:45
Yep, it seems to. I look at others and wish I could be carefree or I just sit here wishing I could go back to before. That's my life. Doctors don't care or want to do anything, hubby is sick of hearing about my butt or the foods I can't eat, he's sick of me spending money on stool softeners and creams, told me there must be something wrong with me if a potato chip would retear my bum. Back in may, I told him that I wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy but after his constant remarks or when he shops, buying bad food or insisting on take out all of which causes me issues, it makes me wish that he could have the experience. He has no idea. I try not to worry or stress, but every meal I think about how it will affect my butt. Sometimes, I just want to hear reassurance that everything will be ok. He just sits there moaning about how he doesn't want to hear about it or telling me there must be something wrong.
It's heartbreaking at times, but I'm hanging in there. I hate taking so much medicine from stool softeners but I'm surviving. 8 weeks of healing. I still occasionally feel it. It pinched 2 days ago but no retear, no stinging or blood.
If you've only had it since September, then it's still early yet. Don't loose hope. Take miralax/movicol, drink water, lots of water, eat more veggies. You'll be ok.