"Why are you so down all the time? All you've got is a fissure, at the end of the day. Think to those people with cancer or some terminal illness, those have the right to be down, not you"
How many times have you heard such things, from the ones around you? I have a fissure since January. The anxiety of waking up, because that means it's time to face another BM, to face the pain, the tears, the feeling of hopelessness. The desire to go to sleep, and to never wake up again. I'm 25, I've always been a generally happy guy, but man this fissure thing put me on my knees. I have lost 10 kg's, my social life, my job and the will to keep going through this hell of condition that seems to never come to an end. I'm actually counting down the minutes for my LIS. It'll be in 2 days, still 48 hours, hopefully the last 48 hours of misery. For all of your who are suffering cause of a fissure, or have been suffering in the past, I totally get your pain. I get how you're feeling and how desperate the whole situation might look. Sadly, those who have never gone through something like this, will never be able to understand us. My two cents for you all is get the damn surgery done. Give yourself 6-7 weeks of time, but if you're not getting any relief by week 3, then start considering the surgery already. This condition absolutely sucks the soul out of your body, so try to end it as soon as possible, there is no point in suffering so much for a fucking cut. Get over the fears, get over the doubts, go get yourself checked and don't settle hoping for things to get better just because you're scared. Once you've got a fissure for a fairly long period of time, even if you'll manage to heal it conservatively, it'll probably easily come back, and you'll have to start all over again. Get LIS, bring down the tone of your internal sphincter and allow some good blood flow. To end this post, anal fissure is the worst condition I have ever experienced on my life (I have iBS, I have had depression in the past, anxiety, but nothing comes even a little close) and this taught me a thing. Never assume someone else's pain is irrelevant just because the disease he/she's suffering from sounds like a no big deal to you. Try to develop empathy, that's all that really matters in the end, between us humans.