by GGky1959 » 22 Jan 2013, 15:24
I am desperate, absolutely desperate to feel better. I messed up big time, I ate the wrong foods my entire life and finally, its caught up with me...via the fissure. At first I thought I could manage the pain until the blood began. So off to the ER and there I got my diagnosis. I call my doc. he recomm. a surgeon...surgeon recomm. healthy lifestyle....healthy lifestyle ain't working....surgeon recomm. surgery....nurse recomm. 1/3 down payment before surgery....wallet say's...no way. Insurance co. says 2000. deduct. must be paid first....so here I type....trying to manage what little of this I can. I got the gels, the creams, the suppositories, the pills, the you name it, I've taken it....and yet....having to take a bowl movement is putting so much stress on my heart, I don't think I'm gonna survive this one. I just want to feel better, that's all.....please does the pain, does the agony ever end....I'm almost suicidal....I can't live with this pain any longer...help!!