Hello. So I have had a fissure that has flared up a few times since Jan 2009, while taking painkiller for a surgery and not taking a stool softener. In the past I would avoid eating, go as liquid as possible, and it would heal up. In 2010 I was pg with my son and I tried my usual, no eating, baths after BM, and applying a mixture of extra strength zinc-A&D ointment- Tronolane. Not eating while pg caused me to almost pass out in a Walgreens. I got it under control though and no issues since then. Each time it would last a week or so.
Fast forward to now and I am pg again. None of the normal side effect but this time I was constipated, hence my current fissure. This time however I am in pain and bleeding for a couple days, then pain a couple more and then for a week or so I am ok. This has been going on for 8 weeks now. I went to a CRS and it was a confirmed fissure, in the back, and he prescribed hydrocortisone cream 2.5% and lidocane 3%. The lidocane was crazy expensive. He wants me to mix them and three times a day insert them up to the second knuckle. It took a couple days for the pharmacy to get in the lidocane. The first time I tried to insert the meds, I was pretty pain free. Within min of trying to insert the finger I hurt, the next day I started bleeding and bled for 5 days.
That is when I found this forum. I took a vacation day on a Friday. I woke up at 7:30 am and at 9:30 am took a Tylenol PM and slept till 4:30 pm. Later that night I took another Tylenol PM and on sat I did it all over again. By Sunday I felt human again. During this time, if I was awake I tried the coconut oil I saw here. Normally right now I am high fiber diet, fiber twice a day (Metamucil type in pill form) and 3 stool softeners a day. I was good for a week but I guess I fell off the wagon and did not get enough fiber or water or something but this Sunday I got constipated again and now I am back in the pain cycle. I called the CRS to ask if there were any tips to getting the meds in cause I bled and could I get in to see them again sooner than a month. They said they wait a month, I just have to start with the pinkie and get used to being able to get to the index finger, and to stop taking Epsom salt baths, just plain ones.
I had an OB appt on Wed, the baby is great but I was in so much pain I could not get through the appointment. I cannot take this for the rest of a pregnancy. I have a very stressful job in the summer that requires me to be present, and yet when I am in pain I can't think about anything but stoping the pain.
I am so sad about this all and honestly it is taking away from enjoying this pregnancy. I love this child but I don't want this to be all I remember, KWIM. On top of it all today is my 3 year wedding anniversary and I am in my bedroom crying and in pain, and can't even think about going out to dinner. My husband even in advance took a day off from work tomorrow to take me out for a surprise lunch and my but ruined that too.
Sorry to lay that all on you all, you don't even know me but I had to tell someone who might understand :-(