At first, I shared only my AF situation only with my husband who has been beyond wonderful ! The man deserves a gold star for what I have put him through. Then I did share it with my parents & my mother in law after I went to the CRS. I also did tell 2 friends, one of which I wish I didn't. I had to tell her not to make any jokes or comments. I know maybe one day I may laugh about the whole situation but I want to be the one making the jokes !
It seems like because I am not walking around with a limb falling off or I am battered and bruised no one seems to really care. I guess because I look normal & I can function that they seem to think I am okay when actually I am not ! They don't what I have to go through each day, dreading the initial BM of morning, having my bum feel like it is being ripped apart or bleeding. Spreading ointments & creams on my hiney, hot baths 2-3x a day...the list goes on for miles it seems. You know the routine !
I can feel myself pulling away from situations already. Not going out with friends, keeping my schedule more open than usual. I don't want to sink into a depression, I want to be positive & hopeful...wait, I am positive and hopeful !!
Today, I decided I am not to going to talk with anyone about it unless they ask & genuinely are concerned. I will talk with my husband (& God) about it but I won't constantly talk about it if you know what I mean. We have a life beyond my AF for pete's sake ! There are other things to talk about besides my bum. I was reading last night and this jumped out at me " If you want to keep a problem you have, then just keep talking about it. But if you want to get rid of it, then talk about the answer as if you expect it to manifest at any moment " WOW, words can be so powerful !
How do you deal with the emotional side since you were diagnosed with your AF ? Do you talk with family & friends or do you keep it to yourself ?
I am so HAPPY that I found this board. Everyone is welcoming & knowledgable. I have learned so much from others situations. Bless you all !
SweetPea