Yeah. The emotional package is huge. My fissure isn't as bad as it used to be before I had LIS but just the fact that it's still there is getting me depressed. My mood seems to be almost entirely depending on how much the fissure is acting up at any given time. The wound from the operation is also still making my butt tender. And what also brings me down is the fact that since the operation I've had to go and wipe my ass again about half an hour after a BM. Also having the fissure seems to have an affect on peeing too. Harder to empty my blatter when trying not to anger the fissure by pushing too much.
All these problems make me feel like I'm trapped in a body of a 70-year-old and I'm not even thirty. Right now I'm feeling really down despite the fact that my summer vacation is starting on friday and I'm going to a trip to Barcelona with a couple of mates. I worry what the trip will do to my butt, but at the same time I kinda have this "shag it" -mentality towards the whole thing. I can't live in a constant fear of hard poo.
And also it seems I'm getting a flu. Not really looking forward to the trip...