Today I was thinking about a quote in a book I read.. "Why is the measure of love, loss?". I've changed the quote to suit AF sufferers, "Why is the measure of pain-free, pain?".
I had 2 weeks of pain-free BMs.. No pain, all day, every day, for 2 weeks!! I felt normal again. So relieved that I was finally.. maybe...almost..healed. And suddenly, a painful BM with blood again. What in the world?? It just so happens that I jinx myself.. everything is fine, and then my friend asks me how I am feeling. I say, great, no pain, I'm so happy!! JINX. Just to prove to me that, no, I don't know everything...no, I am not healed.. Pain-free? Only to tease you... remind you of what you are missing.
This seems like a sick joke :\ I'm just crossing my fingers that these two days are just a fluke. Maybe I can jinx it back. I'm doing horrible, so much pain, never going to heal, this sucks, #*%& it! AHA did I figure out the trick? Do I sound crazy? I hope so