by mmklinemm » 06 Aug 2014, 22:56
I haven't had any pain the last few weeks. I felt completely healed - to the point I was mentally writing my success story post. I've kept using nifedipene even though I felt good. I've been following a wheat- and dairy-free diet since this all started based on advice I read here. I felt so much better without those in my diet. Then last week, we went to visit family for a birthday. I wasn't looking forward to 3 nights in a hotel, but I went prepared. I ate really well the whole time, except the night of the birthday party. Two beers and a very small piece of ice cream cake. I just wanted to feel normal around my in-laws. I had terrible diarrhea the next few days, which caused a re-tear. It feels deeper and bigger than the first. The pain is so much worse. I'm so scared of my BM tomorrow. I feel so hopeless that this is never going to heal. I don't mind eating this way to heal, but I can't imagine eating oat bran, sweet potatoes, and salad day in and day out for the rest of my life. And I don't know why ice cream is tearing up my bowels like this. I used to eat greek yogurt every morning and ice cream all the time. Regardless, it's back to taking baths, preemptive motrin, and dreading every morning.
Status: LIS 20 Oct 2014, 2nd LIS 05 March 2018.