I'm new here and trying to figure out what is going on with me. I'm pretty sure it's hemorrhoids or a fissure but idk how severe or if it needs immediate attention? I have a very bad anxiety disorder with some agoraphobia so it's very hard to even see a doctor for a cold.
So about a week ago I had a very high fever of about 104 f° for several days(strep). The first bm I had was dry/hard but not anything bad, no blood. Then had a couple days of bad diareah still no blood but the last time I had it, I noticed it felt like I had to keep going but couldnt and was straining really bad. For 2 days after that I had small amounts of blood and mucus but no stool, and had that same feeling that I had to keep going. 2 days ago I had an average stool and there was a decent amount of blood both in the stool and on the tp. Then yesterday a very painful dry hard stool with even more blood and it was dripping. I've been treating it with coconut oil suppositories and baths to relieve some pain and acetaminophen and still on my antibiotics for strep. It doesn't seem to be getting any worse now, but scared of bm's and have missed work already just because id hate for it to get worse while at work.
I've been eating fruits and veggies and high fiber foods the past 2 days. Sometimes I think I have to go but just strain myself on accident (nothing comes out but get bad spasms) and bleed, but the bleeding stops between BMs/attempting to go. Is this normal. If I keep stools soft shouldn't this heal on its own?