by havefaith » 09 Jan 2014, 23:34
Im 29 year old male massage therapy student. Im from Ottawa canada. Formerly a dental assistant and personal trainer. I also used to be a bouncer at after hours clubs Loved training people to fight in mixed martial arts. I have a huge social network (3 people of which i see now from time to time) but usually i have people over on a regular basis. I struggle with chronic neckpain as well as genital herpes, and all of my close friends know about as well as my fissures :)
i have my own place however, atm i stay with my parents as im pretty done for most of the day. my gf is a real savior because shes always there just doing things or making me feel supported, i love her so much........ shes taught me what it is to truly love a person.
my hobbies include building fences and decks, doing all sorts of home renovations. However, i did not get a chance to finish the interlocking stone in my backyard last year as this all started.
since that dreadful day i have done very few things while having fissures. they debilitate me so badly its hard to get much done. i feel like the worst bf sometime, the worst son, and not a very good person to myself due to all of the anxieties that i have been experiencing with this crap.
all i think about is what is going into my body, when is next bowel movement, do we have wipes all creams and gloves handy. at my parents i have a bathroom dedicated to me which helps.
other than that in my spare time i loved weightlifting, mixed martial arts, yoga, spirituality, organic healthy eating including juice fasting which ive done a long time ago very successfully.
i found now that i dont really hang out with friends too often, and during conversation i find it really hard to be in the moment as lll get a sensation and then that will be all i will be able to think about. Beauty pics left handed, youre my hero!! tough tough lady. you are all so strong....
I have faith in you always, i love you like my own son or daughter, when you hurt, i hurt. Let us all be each others guiding light, and heal without anxiety :) Much love to all.