This is slightly off topic...
Firstly, I've had a fairly uneventful life..the normal ups and downs that normal people experience. I'm physically healthy, etc. BUT, this AF has been the most disruptive event in my life, with pain so severe at times that I have actually pondered suicide as a viable alternative. When it was at its worst several years ago, the though crossed my mind, "OK, should I just kill myself, or do I want to spend the remainder of my days lying on the bathroom floor writhing in agony for hours after each BM". Fortunately, I did get over that initial AF flare up, and I count myself as very lucky that it hasn't been as bad ever since...
What I'm wondering is, how many of you have caught yourself having that conversation with your maker that people in severe distress always seem to have, "Please god, If I get over this then I promise to change my life, help the starving children, etc" ?
..Well, I'm finding myself having these thought from time to time these days...