i can't believe this but i had what feels like another setback yesterday!! i've been using MOM every single day for over a month now, and having liquidy painless BMs. well, i think i got too dehydrated this weekend and had a semi-formed BM on sunday morning (even after using MOM). it STUNG coming out and hurt more than usual afterwards. no blood, as usual, just a stinging pain when i was going to the bathroom and more soreness in the area after.
this is so discouraging!!! i was getting used to feeling decent every day, and the liquid BM every morning didn't bother me. this makes me think that i'll never be able to have normal BMs, since one that was barely formed, and not hard at all, could still hurt so much and cause more damage to my fissure. i think all the liquidy BMs i've been having the past month, even though they don't cause pain, are enabling my sphinter to remain super tight. i've been trying to put neosporin in the area and i can't even get a single finger in the hole!! how could i have already had 2 sphincterotomies and still be this tight??
does anyone have any ideas or anything?? i dread going back to the dr again. i don't want botox after 2 LIS's and i don't want the dr to do any kind of exam that might rip me open more....