So I had 4 days of not bleeding and just a irritating level of pain, I was so excited and happy even though at the back of my mind I knew a setback was due. This morning I had that setback, I slept in which meant a delay in my BM and therefore a hard tip, I will be getting up the same time again from now on. I think that was the cause of the wee tear and blood. I did lie awake in the night worrying about a trip away to see my family who is all going to be in the same place since about 5 years so perhaps that stress added to the issue, not sure. I am worried about all the questions from my family about why I am eating like I am and them giving 'advice' of what I should be eating and their comments about my weight loss which I am freaking out about at the moment. I look like a skeleton. They will also be critiquing my parenting style which will be stressful. That's the worse case scenario anyway.
Writing here has put it into perspective, I need to breathe. I will try and talk to my mum about sticking to my diet which has been working a charm until this morning. I will be mindful and assertive and tell them I don't want their advice and critique.
I will heal.