hi bambi,
definitely agree with cheryl and dawn.
i too had at least one day each week that passed after LIS that i doubted something or just felt like 'what was the point of doing that since i still feel something!?' but it has gotten better every week that passes.
i think it will be natural and normal to have setbacks and absolutely some discomfort and possibly pain will be involved as you heal.
i just got out of my soak tonight too! see, i am continuing to do my soaks as well and i am feeling better and better each day despite whatever the area of my skin tag decides to do.
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i think i was very depressed on day 4 or 5 or maybe 6 when i had that sneaky BM that just flew out of my bum and it really hurt. that first one left me with a sore muscular pain that kept me company for at least 6 hours. and that's that i think i was taking the vicodin! LOL!
and the following week the same thing happened, a sneaky fast BM came out but thank goodness the sore muscular pain was shorter in duration.
i was very disappointed if that was going to happen on a weekly basis but i don't think i had the sore muscular feeling in week 3 and 4 so far. which i am happy about.
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during my first week i was overwhelmed with also feeling my testicle sensations and i struggled with suicidal thoughts. i didn't talk about it much but when i wasn't here on the board at night, i was googling for ideas on how to die easily and how i could do it and get it over with.
i can remember those nights and i couldn't stop. i would just focus on wanting to die after the LIS surgery. every day.
i got so desperate on a Friday that i went to church during lunch during that first week back to work and i cried a lot in a pew and asked God to please help me stop thinking that way. i prayed a rosary and i cried because i didn't want to think that way but i just couldn't get a grip on how many things were out of my control health-wise.
i don't know what i would have done if some how i found some pills that would just require me to take it with a glass of water and just put me to sleep and easily take me away and that would be that. it just seemed so desirable.
that was going on during day 9.
and i am so happy to say that on that following Saturday, i woke up feeling lifted, i woke up refreshed and those thoughts or feelings seeking a "way out of this" were gone. i had a wonderful Saturday and from there on, i haven't been plagued with those overwhelming thoughts.
God once again blessed me and took me under His grace and took care of me.
i can't explain it.
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all i hope is that you have come a long way Bambi to take the big plunge to do the LIS and skin tag removal and not only do you have to focus on your recovery and healing, but you have a hubby that you also want to help recover and heal.
i just want to assure you that i had my setbacks post-LIS and i hope i didn't paint it as flowers and rainbows coming out of my butt. you are not alone.
you are not a week out yet but almost - and it would be sad to start thinking this is not going to work.
on the contrary, still believe.
please take your pain meds on the clock. even if it means you have to do a refill. please take them. don't let the pain scare you. don't let the pain take over your relaxation.
keep your chin up and stay positive.
remember you will be healing throughout your first year. there is so much time ahead in which changes will happen and improvements will come.
hang in there!
do you have lidocaine ointment? i don't remember. just dab some on your anus - you don't have to penetrate it internally. just apply it externally all over your anus. it will seep in on its own.
i hope you can find some peace along this mess.
have a good night and may you wake up with a newfound peace and inspired to heal but also ready to combat the pain and put it in its place that it will not beat you down! you will beat it!
i know you will.

Bambi - hope you are continuing to do well, and remember to take things week-by-week.
And isn't Happyass the greatest?! I'm so glad you are feeling better Happy. Our world is better because of you!

Yes, Happy, we all want you to stay around for a long while. But these butt issues can really send the mind for a loop at times.

HappyAss- I was so touched by your post. I am so sorry to read that you had such dark days so recently. You reached out to God in your desperation and He answered your prayers by lifting you up. Please remember that if you have such dark thoughts again. He is always there and I know He answers my prayers, even when my faith is weak. You have been such a help to me and others on this site. I thank God for you and all the other wonderful people who have offered their help and advice to me. I have to confess that I can't remember what happened with your other issue (with your testicles). I am hoping I am right in my memory that it turned out ok?
Thank you again and please remember that we are all here for you and that you have made a huge difference in the lives of many others by your presence here. I can only imagine what it must be like to truly know you in real life!
Bambi

Happyass IS the greatest!
I had no idea you went through such a low spot, Happy! You always come across seeming so positive in the face of all your challenges; but to feel despair is human. I'm so glad it's better now.
Butt issues do hijack your mind and your mood...it's amazing what one little tight muscle can do to destroy your mental health to the point of not wanting to live anymore...the head issues are worse than the pain some days.
Praying for everyone on this forum!

Happy,
I had those kind of days with my butt before surgery . If it weren't for my faith in God and my children I don't think I would he here today.
I had so many people praying for me, was on the prayer list at my church or I don't think I could have made it through. I had terrible spasms, had lost so much weight that I didn't leave my house... I didn't know how to explain to most people why or how I looked so awful. My sister started crying when she saw me.....
What I'm trying to say is even though I have been very blessed with a wonderful recovery, I understand the toll the whole situation can take on a person.
I will be keeping each and everyone of you in my prayers! I believe all of you will be healed and over this soon and Our stories will be left to give hope to others!
This forum has so many caring, compassionate people. It's really kind of amazing to see how many good people are in this world!

i love u all!
sorry, bambi for highjacking your thread of day 4.....
i hope though you will be inspired to keep your healing on target and focused!
i am happy to keep you all in my prayers every day.
thanks for being supportive peeps! you all are the best.