So to get you guys up to speed, 2 days ago i decided to be brave and apply my nifedapine lidocaine ointment to myself just as my GI had indicated. I had 3 bms that day so i had to apply it 3 times and was assured that even though i felt pain, there was "no way i would do damage with a gloved finger"
Well that led me to spasms for over 24 hours, in fact i went from feeling where my original fissure was, as well as another one i suspected, to NOT BEING ABLE TO FEEL THEM AT ALL.
In fact i can even walk better etc and SO far bms are all soft and painless.
HOWEVER, the inner lining of my anus feels swollen, as does my anal canal. my mom who is a GP managed to apply the nifedipene and lidocaine to me twice yesterday without pain and with SOME relief, however today i still feel a lot of spasms (more than i have ever experienced before but a bit less than yesterday) I DONT UNDERSTAND HOW suddenly this would occur.
I am more concerned about my lining feeling so puffy, how is it that after feeling those cuts for all this time, i hurt myself more, and now i dont feel them? WHAT COULD BE GOING ON HERE? Im very scared.... right now the spasms werent AS painful as yesterday yet, however it feels a lot tighter in there. i also noticed my buttocks getting tighter and an inability to relax and let the spasms go as i used to be able to do, my entire pelvic area feels tighter..
if this sounds like self inflicted proctitis , i have proctosedyl to manage it but was told to be careful as it thins the skin. but i dont want to start diagnosing myself. i just need ideas on what this might be. has anyone ever had this happen to them before?
my questions: 1. what do you guys think could be going on here? has this ever happened to any of you?
2. could i have injured myself somehow with a gloved finger my body is trying to protect that minor injury with spasm?
3.why am i suddenly not feeling the fissure pain when im at rest, but feeling way more swelling/tightness/spasms.