After 2 1/2 mths. of dealing with this AF - and varying pain levels - I'm so, sooo tired of this.
I thought I might have started to turn the corner -- and today, I didn't feel too bad. The pain level was (that's right, WAS) at about a 1-2, and the only thing I noticed was a bit of itching and a "buzzing" feeling, like a small electrical current was hooked up to my anal area.
I've been using different ointments/creams - and lately, I've been applying an OTC triple-antibiotic ointment, which seems similar to Vaseline, only it has the antibiotic blend in it - which I've heard can help with the healing.
Okay - so, because I was itching a bit, I wiped off the antibiotic ointment and applied the prescription hydrocortizone/pramoxine (?) cream (a thick, white cream) that one of my cr's prescribed. Not long after that, things started to burn! I'm thinking that this cream caused that, but I'm not sure.
I'm soooo discouraged. I just want my AF to heal. I'm carefully watching my diet, and I've tried the various creams/ointments (including nitro/lido), to see what might work best.
Tonight it's occurred to me that I might never get better. Of course, I keep hoping I will, but I don't know . . . it's been nearly 3 months of this torture, and I still haven't healed. --- Right now, it feels like I'll never get my life back. I just want to cry and crawl in a hole . . .
BTW, on Tuesday I have an appointment to see one of my crs, again. I was hoping this AF would have been much better by now, so I wouldn't have to go in. I don't want to have surgery - I just want to heal . . . but that hasn't happened, yet . . . and I have my doubts . . .
I would appreciate any and all suggestions or comments.