by Courtknee » 01 Jul 2013, 09:16
Hey Newmom,
The only thing that kept me going these last 2 1/2 years was my daughter. I used to cry and beg God to please heal me. I would tell him he could take everything away except my family if he healed me.
I'd love to have another kid, but only being 13 days out, I'm not brave enough to actually consider it yet. They way I feel is, I'd rather be a happy, healthy mommy to the one child I have, rather than depressed and in pain all of the time with two children. If I feel like I can in a year, I will speak to my OB and my CRS about my options and I'm sure I'd have to get a c-section, as I hear that's what is recommended after LIS.
I pooped this morning with almost no pain at all even from the skin tag sites (and I'm having monster poops). They are maybe a little bit bigger around than Coke bottle caps! As I said before, I haven't had any pain from the fissure site since the moment after surgery. I even felt my fissure yesterday and it feels like its filled in, so it's not the deep tear it once was. The doctor said I had some pretty bad anal stenosis, so my butthole literally didn't want to let anything but watery diarrhea out which I'm sure was only aggravating the fissure more. I really urge you to get the ball rolling with some sort of treatment, whether it's surgery or another method. I waited 2 1/2 years because I was scared to death of the surgery. I even cried the entire time up until they put the Valium in my arm right before surgery. Now I'm kicking myself because I wish I would have got it done and over with 2 1/2 years ago. I'm sending good thoughts your way :) Keep me posted on what's going on with you!