Hi all,
So yesterday, I want back to CRS and she did a gentle exam and said that it looked like the fissure was starting to heal. Of course, she didn't want to look too far up and possibly hurt me. I know I have a deep and long fissure. The last few days have been a bit better. Still some pain and burning but I have been able to function. We decided to hold off on the LIS and continue to give the botox a chance to work. i'm relieved because I would prefer no cutting but then again, I have had it with this.
Today has been a bad day pain wise. Worse than the past 2 days. I feel like I am going in the wrong direction. Is it possible that even the gentle exam yesterday could have contributed to this pain today? Also, I find that my stools these last few days while, not hard, they are formed but I am having a hard time evacuating all at once. I find myself pushing a little and then I freak out about that. And I have started having a cup of coffee in the morning to get things moving. I just want my BM's to fall out without effort. I don;t wan to push. I have been drinking plenty of water, only eating veggies, some fruit and lean protein, some oatmeal, occasional yogurt, prunes and figs. I also take 3 stool softeners a day, tumeric, vitamin b and I take a tablespoon of coconut oil. I don't understand why my stools are not just falling out!! Any suggestions?
I know this is a slow recovery. I'm afraid because I go back to work in a few weeks and at this point, I can't even sit in the car to get myself there. I've had ot with this part of my body. I'm tired of putting various ointments up my but. and I also have internal hemorrhoids which thank goodness don't seem to be the problem right now. I also have a big external roid and a skin tag. Neither hurt, just makes it annoying to find the anal entrance and out stuff in there. I want to trade asses with someone...don't want mine anymore. Just want to poop in piece. UGHHHHHHHHH
thanks for listening to my rant! I was also given valium suppositories so we will see how those work.