This is the only place I could post this and people understand what I'm going through. I had a really wide BM yesterday and it made a fissure on the left side. I'm so upset right now that this happened. I've been having looser BMs than normal for days now, so I took an Imodium to stop them. Never again. It was like trying to pass a brick. I used water and an enema to get it to pass, but it did damage on the way out anyway.

Today was so tough despite a soft BM. Knife pain on the way out and I was sweating by the end. No bleeding luckily. I'm so worried that this will turn chronic. I don't think my mental health can handle this right now. Healing vibes much appreciated.

Touchwood I'm relieved to report that I'm healing slowly and steadily. I highly recommend Extra strength body creme by Apothecanna. It has a numbing effect which is so welcome after a BM. I wouldn't use it too much because it can burn a bit at first, but once the numbing sets in it's such a relief.

So sorry that you have a new fissure, and sorry that no one responded to your original post. But it's good that you are healing again, and the creme sounds like it's effective.

Hi P&H - I’m sorry you have had a retear, it is so devestating when that happens. It happened to me twice this year and it’s just the worst feeling. I haven’t had any procedures yet (LIS in 3 weeks) but I can imagine it feeling worse when you thought you were fixed. Glad to hear you are improving though - how are things now?

Thank you both for your concern. I am doing much better, still some residual tightness for which I will be doing gentle stretching of the muscles, but as far as I can tell the fissure has healed up.
@Conifer: I'm sorry you are in this boat too. I hope lis will help you heal once and for all.