[b]Hi all,
I hope I am doing this "posting" thing right, just joined after couple of days of futile trys , I guess when your butt mulfunction - your brain follows the tend :roll: . I wuld also like to apologize for my spelling mistakes that will occur on regular bases because English is my seccnd lanuage , but I am sure that pain speaks one universal language :( . I got my fissure
on my FIRST day of vacation on HI - what a great way to start your dream vacation - heh???!! I always had trouble going to public restrooms, but had to go anyway after long trip so I was sitting on the toilet seat for eons waiting for everybody to go out so I wouldn't "God forbid" make any emberassing sound in there - like other people produce arias siting there (???), and at that moment pushed soooooooo hard that even tough I was not constipated I managed to tear my guts because of psychosis my involuntary muscle was in full spasm . HOW STUPID, STUPID I was !!!!!!! I know that there is no way I can go back in time, but still I can't forgive myself for doing such stupid thing, snd for being such a "tight ass" about normal,natural physical bodily function. Now I have fissure :( that does not want to heal even i tried everything under he sun . I have it now for 3 months and was 3 times so close to heal it just to reopen it with freak accidants. I feel like somebody is doing Woo-Doo tricks with my butt, I am so physiclay and emotionaly drained that I am concedering LIS moe and more. I do not have constipation EVER, and now that I use more fiber and mineral oil to lubricate guts I have soft BM's BUT I GO 3 to 5 times A DAY to the bathroom which is just rediculous !!!!
Does anybody have that kind of problem ??? My stools are ideal consistency for fissure but I have to use that poor anus so many times a day and I have to be HOME to go and have sitzbaths 4 times a day and there are just so many hours in a day !!!! My life is basicly GONE. The rast of the day if I am not in the bathroom is controled by pain
:( . I can't use Ibuprofen because of my sensitive stomach, and Tylenol just halps a little. I also use Nitro cream and gazilion natural oils and creams , but my sphincter spasms after an hour after i have my BM and rarely "let go". I am at the end of my wits ,
I know that you guys understand, that is why I am writting - only my husband understands me compleely , everybody else is waiting for me just to "snep out of it" . I am was offered Botox but after reading disclamer I opted not to have it , I would ruther have LIS - something that has almost 100% cure rate and is used for 50 years for tretmant of chronic fissures. I red all of the posts on this site, but after so many one just start to mix who wrote what, so i would appreciate if people who had LIS can write to me just couple of words about their satisfaction with the procedure and if anybody got incontinent after the surgery ????
Thank you all for reading and listenning to my endles rumbling, how i wish i can meet you all in person