Hey everybody! Still on for tomorrow at 1:00. Still scared of this surgery -- mostly because I don't have the horrific pains most of you say you had the surgery to relieve. I really don't have pain at all unless I have multiple BMs. Then again, since I've had this fissure since '09, maybe now I don't realize it. I bought lots of soup, Ensure and fruit yesterday at the store to be ready. Wish me luck and if any of you pray, please do so!!

Reid,
I think you have made a wise decision. You're on your way to healing now!!
I believe in prayer and I will be praying for you. God took care of me and I know he will you too.
Try not to stress about this too much today. I know that's easier said than done:) I was very nervous myself but it wasn't worth all the stress I went through. It was so much easier than I had thought.
Take care and keep us posted:)

Hey Reid - my surgery is tomorrow too! I'll be thinking about you and praying for you too. Try not to worry - believe me, I know that is easier said than done! I'm saying the same thing to myself right now!:D But, really, I'm very confident that we are both going to have good surgery experiences and then we can focus on healing and getting our lives back!

Thanks Dawn and hopetoheal! It so helps to know that others have walked this road before me. Hopetoheal -- I hope your surgery is successful and you get your issues resolved quickly! I'm sure we'll be discussing our recoveries over the next weeks.

well good luck with that surgery tommorrow, and make sure to pop those pain pills when you get home, because once that local wears off you will need something else
hope to read of your recovery this week

Thank you!

Good luck today, Reidgirl!
I'm thinking of you and wishing you all the best.
Your surgery will go brilliantly!

Hey Reid,
Just wanted to let you know I'm thinking about you today.
Hope things are going well for you!

Reidgirl,
It's gonna be OK! Before I had the surgery my butt was such a mess, I was so ready to do something about it. And even though it's not perfect now, yet (it's been 3 months since surgery), I'm so much better than I was. I would definitely do it again.
I spent a lot of time wishing these problems would just go away, but the truth is generally they won't and they tend to get worse over time. Without that surgery my life would still be a miserable hell. What I'm dealing with now is just anxiety, because I've had a couple of retears since the surgery. So I get anxious before every BM, just like I used to before surgery.
So I'm setting small goals, like let's see if I can make it a month or two without tearing...really, I'd love to get to one year without a tear, because I've read here that the tissue needs 1-2 years to regain most of it's original strength after a tear. I don't know if I'll ever trust my butt again, though, but I know I'd do that surgery again if I had to!
Best of luck with your recovery!

Hey Reidgirl - how are you doing? How did your surgery go? I said a little prayer yesterday while I was in the pre-op room that we would both have excellent surgeries :D
I hope it worked! And I hope you are resting and doing well and not in too much pain