I've never been in this much pain in my life. This compares to nothing I have ever felt before, ever. I am considering the surgery, as this lovely AF will not heal on it's own. I am completely miserable and bringing my family on the ride with me makes me feel worse. I found this blog and thought, why not?! So far it has provided some good info. So thanks! At least I know I'm not in this boat alone.
I consulted with my CRS last week and am pretty sure the anal exam aggravated the fissure. This is the worst pain I've been in since it started in December. I am using Nifed/Lido, flexeril, a cocktail of OTC pain relievers round-the-clock, switched from Citracel to Metamucil and have just switched to taking Norco with a stool softener. Oh, and I succumbed to Dr. Wheatgrass Super balm (snake oil) recommendation. Sitz baths, high fiber diet, the works...I'm doing it all! Periodic relief at best, but when it hurts...OMG!
I seriously can't drive or ride in the car, sitting is really not an option for me for that passed week. This is bordering on RIDICULOUS! My CRS wants me to go in to his office, 45 minute drive, to consult about the surgery...OMG! I can't be in the car that long. I told his nurse that and whatever, I'm waiting for his call. I could be waiting awhile, right.
I am frustrated with the pain and my quality of life is, well, this is no quality of life. I'm miserable and losing hope. I can't see the light at the end of the tunnel and I want to give up. I'm even crying to a blog for Pete's sake!