Hello all,
I have been reading this forum for a while and have found it very useful and supportive...
i am in a dark place right now so i thought i would introduce myself and maybe some of you can help me
I am a 19 year old male and for about the last year and a half i have been dealing with AF's on and off
I won't go into all the details from the past but basically i have been dealing with severe stress during the last few years, I had a colonoscopy to confirm that nothing else was going on... nothing was found other than two anal fissures and that i had a long colon...
This year was going well for the most part but about a month things got ugly
I have been taking a fibre supplement this whole time but i got food poisoning so i stopped using it for a couple of days (biggest mistake of my life) A few days later i had a very hard bm along with a lot of pain and blood
this continued for days, the pain was excruciating, felt like i was passing blood, i was in tears, my stool was covered in blood so i went to the doctor who confirmed my fissure had returned
I started to use rectogesic but for the first few weeks i was only using once a day or sometimes twice a day... things become better there has still been pain and a bit of blood but nothing compared to the first few days. Whats odd is that my stool is soft but it takes a long time for the process to be complete, the first piece takes a while to come out as it feels like there is a blockage.. then there is the pain and then it comes (sorry for the detail)
yesterday things became bad again... :'( i dont even know why..
i have bad anxiety and i am obsessive, this combined with an af is not good, whenever i see blood in my stool i get worried, maybe i will get blood poisoning, maybe i will lose too much blood, maybe i really have bowel cancer (these are some of the anxious thoughts that cross my mind)
I have booked in to see my specialist as i am desperate to get this fixed... I'm thinking maybe the botox injection is the right path to go down now..? :'(
well thanks for reading my story :)